Everything happens for a reason

I just dyed my hair, the right color. All I need is some bleached highlights, and I'll be as artificial as I can be. On a lighter note, I just moved to my new place in New Brunswick, with a new roommate. I so desperately wanted to live alone, but God has different plans. Whatever the purpose of this lesson, I can say thus far I am grateful. At the end of the day you learn to love and be loved, so I am ready for my lesson!

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Location:Bayberry Dr,Holmdel,United States

Venture into Reds

I'm on my way to Philly to drop my mom and sister off. They leave to Atlanta on Monday. Again this is bittersweet, but it seems like this will be the best for all of us. I am ready to be on my own.

Speaking of own, I'm trying to make different styles my own. Branching into territories unknown. So red, is the color of the day.









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It's always about a boy

I wish I could shake you. I know I'm better than this. I don't know what's worse :to never be in love, or to be in love with someone that doesn't love you back? That's the question. I just want to be loved...deeply, truly, and as hard as possible. I just want to know that feeling, and not this one.


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Helmet hair!!

I have just been approved for my week off!!! Yayy! I'm going to London :-).

I still have a shit boat of saving to do, but I am still going, God willing!!! I washed my hair yesterday it looks like a helmet. Which leads me to saving a little more because I need hair extensions! It's getting to be ridiculous now. Behold:

  

I am busy at work trying to figure out how to starve myself for the next six weeks. I need to drop 20lbs before London. I figure I'd try the healthy way first, but its taking too long. I have websites and shopping carts filled with clothes I'll be able to fit. So as I sit and eat this granola bar dreaming of Doritos, I guess I can continue shopping...I mean working!

Long time

It has been awhile since my last blog, but I have decided to take a new approach to the way I write things. A lot of my entries were depressing and I was beginning to grow tired of myself. So instead of being a gnat, I rather talk about things more positive in my life, such as new jobs, new trips and new places and people. I think I missed a comma. Anywho, I am getting ready to move...as well as....getting ready for a trip to London. This trip, which I can't afford and I dont have vacation time for, is a trip of a lifetime. There's very little on my bucket list, but London is one of those things. I figured since my job is a temp position and I am moving into Someones house (as their roommate), I might as well do this trip. Other than the fact I might not have a job after this trip, I have to raise money to get there. Technically with my crazy new budget, I should make it, but I still need some money to move. So there is a lot of saving and finding another mean for income. So I will have to give waitressing a go. I figure that's the only job that I can have that will allow me to work weekends only and I could pick up a shift here or there. I wish I was still in college, there at least I had four jobs and kept looking for new opportunities. So here goes nothing....and everything.



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Location:Wesley Ave,Union Beach,United States

Pissed

This will be short....is it wrong that when I'm pissed I run to my iPod to find a song to fit my mood....but can't because I can't remember the song title...I.e. It goes like this...: d.d.d.duuu.du!!! Duuuuuuuuuu.daaaa.

I'm sooooooooo pissed



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Birthdays...

My birthday is Saturday! I'll be the ripe age of 26. Like every birthday except for my 19 (where my roommates in college threw me a spongebob bday) has kinda been the pits. I'm either starting a new job, broke, depressed or its ruined by drunk people. I truly go hard for other peoples bday though. It's a true celebration in my eyes. I put money aside to make sure they have the time of their lives. Surprises , phone calls whatever I need to do to make their day memorable. Here comes 26 and I will be broke because I lent my mom money which she has yet to pay back. I wasn't looking for it back but it was the money to pay a bill and now I have to pay the bill out of my bday fund. I stop hoping people would go all out for my bday so I put things aside for myself....however now it's gone....so yet another year....yet another!

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My new hair!!! It's so beyon...ce what!?

I dyed my hair his weekend! I look like Tony the tiger...my co worker said cheddar harvest sun chips which is a better assessment. What do u think? Newho I went to the Janet Jackson concert and I have some photos from it...which show I'm a crappy photographer. I love Janet but the concert seemed so short, I figure when you have a catalog (Vogues september issue) of songs you just can't play them all that night. But overall good show. She looked amazing like she always does big, small, medium, sma-large whatever. Here is some highlights of the show (don't kill the photographer)



Janets intro



whatta body




love love lovvvee her hair

the best video I recorded

so there u are...
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Ugh!!!

Financial issues can really mess up your day.


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Awww dip!!

My lunch today

Pathetic right? This lent thing is becoming harder than I thought! Last night I went to bed at 7:35 because I could t have liquor....today I have coffee and spring water because the only place remotely close to my job is McDonalds....and I can have fast food :-(. This weekend I'll be in the city and I know I'll be tempted all day, but if theres a will there's a way. Speaking of the city....I really need to start looking for apartments. I love love lovvvveeee Hoboken but it's super expensive. I think I can afford a studio...so cheers to looking :-)

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Start O' Lent

I'm not even Catholic, but I sure do celebrate as if I was....were...(I swear I can't get this grammar thing). This year it's very important. I am giving up alcohol, fast food and junk food. It seems a little dumb, but I figured that giving up my biggest temptations will help me get closer to God. These items have been a very big part of my life.  I have to start living like this life will be over soon so make the best outta it, even if I'm a hundredaire...with a millionaire taste....with a Marc Jacob purse and Old Navy clothes....with YSL shoes and $20 jeans! You get the idea . I spend a lot of time and money on easy outs and not really focusing on the bigger picture I guess. So for this lent I give up some of the bullshit....


It's a small step for life. I want to hold on to something worth wild because time is short! Life is short....most of the men that are attracted to me are short! I have short patience....I have short hair for crying out loud. Wish me luck....

Food for thought

Yesterday I went to visit my cousin in NY with my aunts. Had a good time and I'm happy I went. I ended up having a conversation with my cousin about life...and it had me thinking. Change isnt something that comes naturally or easy. As in life, change is a process. In order for one to change, one needs to fully commit to the process (sorry for rambling). So thus, my process must start! I don't have an eternity to make things happen the way I want them to in this life. I was dealt this hand, and by God, I will play it.

The word Selfish has been thrown around all my life. I started to believe that was who I was. But I'm not...I've done too many selfless actions to be that. I can't rattle these off the top of by head because I dont keep count. I just do them. I will not be the one person with, and see those I love without. However, providing for others when you can barely stand on your own two feet is just the same as being selfish to me. Or youfish! I care too much about you...and forget about myself. I see those I love getting lazy. They know I will do it if it needs to be done. They've manipulated me into thinking I don't do enough...so I go beyond my own capacity to just do it. The small tasks are the most upsetting. It's the fact that the task I do is being continuously done on my part and no one tries anymore. Baby steps aren't being taken by these people so they never learn to do it for themselves! Everything I want bad I work hard to get. If I don't get it...I either didnt want it as badly as i thought, or the want never turned into a need! I need some SPACE. I just really need to stop saying it and do it! Change is a process! That process to push yourself into your desired transformation takes time. The time is here....and change is good!


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Shammmmeeeee

I get through my work of the day too quick!!! Now I'm stuck taking pics on my iPhone! Yessss!!!

Below is a collage <-----that looks wrong. Of my pics! Sidebar: There is nothing like sending a friend request to someone that you were interested in and them not responding until 3 months later. Great! And the whirlwind of emotion sets in! Newho here are the artistic photographs by moi!




so mod! And deep





Little Timmy's in a well??? And he can't swim!!! And he's afraid of the dark





I think my eye is swollen





yea it is

okay I'm done!!!! Bye



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Every saint has a past...every sinner a future!

Watching RHOA reunion...hmmm! I thought Nene was a bully but shes not that bad. Life needs more "realist" type females. Im holding my comments until Apprentice. I don't really like Star Jones so I'm curious to see Nene and her clash. But newhooooo shes a firecracker!

Today u bought a Nook! Id love to give you a review but i dont have wifi!!! So until i can steal some from Starbucks, ill keep you posted on how it is. It looks cool! But so does breast augmentation...in other news made an Arnold Palmer with sweet tea vodka and lemonade! So excuse me as I go vomit! Til next time


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Bucket list

You're never too young to start a bucket list! Mine consist of over priced items that I can only buy one of. Ultimately my bucket list is going to leave me broke. I think the first might be going to a concert by myself. This isn't really an addition to my bucket list but something that I'm just going to have to do. I want to see The Gaga! We will see how this unfolds!

I just viewed my blog and boy is it boring! I need to change y wall paper ASAP, but don't know how to! Needs a little color....like dark purple! On Sunday a few friends and I had a Singles Dinner for Valentine's Day eve.....it was a success! I made baked ziti....delicious!!!




looks goooddd
dinner parties are always fun...but drinks are better. Plus with drinks you don't have to cook for hours! Let me spend some time trying to make my blog...pop a little more!! Gaga....

What's for dinner?

Hey hey hey! Today is super slow at work and I've already added over 100 items I can't afford into my cart at luisaviaroma.com and polyvore.com! God if I were rich I'd be broke right now. I actually ended up finding a pair I was set to buy, but they were sold out :-(. I think it's a sign though....they're actually ugly, but in a different pretty way. It would have been my second go at Jeffrey Campbell shoes, but from the reviews it would be a perfect fit. Here they are:



Cute weird right? Whatever I don't care about the opinions! I'll probably wear them once, since my wardrobe lacks personality :-(. Who says a tshirt and jeans with killer shoes can't make an outfit.

Speaking of can't...did you see the Grammys? I respect all artist since they made it, but I thought the show was a little lack luster. But what wasn't lack luster was....




These are the shoes that Gwyneth Paltrow wore during her performance with Cee-Lo Green...love her....love these Louboutins! I think that's the only performance that stood out because of those amazzzzing pieces of art work! However congrats to Espadrille Spintoza...or whatever her name is! I think I'll give a listen to her album! If it's anything like I'm hoping it's a fusion of Chrisette Michele, Nora Jones, Ledisi and Corrine Bailey Raye!! Where were they at??? Other than Nora Jones....where's the real music? Congrats to her!!!! I went off a tangent and got lost....what was I talking about?? Oh yeah potatoes....I want a baked potato with bacon and a steak on top....yes that's what I'll have for dinner. And that concludes this blog update!

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New Yob

This is my first post on my piece of shit iPhone...today is the last day of my first week of my new job! Nope, that didn't make sense. The new gig is cool, I really like it...hope I get to stay awhile. Everyone speaks in periodic table and Latin, but hey maybe one day I'll be able to translate. Nah, I'll stick to bad grammar and incorrect English, uncorrect...whatever!