Trying to stay FOCUSED

Yea. This is a terrible picture. What it is ~ is a picture of my MCAT book, with shake it like a Polaroid Picture highlighted. I found this funny because it has just completely distracted me from studying. I had a dry-erase board on my fridge that tries to keep me on track, and I have deleted the date to be completed about 100 times. I told myself that going to the library would help keep me on track, but now I don't even have the energy to get up and go. I don't think I want it personally. I am still fighting with what I want to do in life. As much as I thought I wanted to be a doctor, the more I keep questioning if it is worth me putting all this energy into it. Since I wasted my 20's asking these questions, am I willing to waste my 30's on the same questions? Maybe I should make a list of pros and cons. I will still take my MCAT and do the best I can, but I really need to think of the bigger picture going forward.....

I have just received a copy of "The Secret" I don't know if that is suppose to be underlined or italicize or whatever. I think I will read the end of it to get to the secret.....I hope its a coupon to Coldstone Creamery....mmmmmm I love ice cream