Something Like A Job

I have decided after being laid off that my next position would not be a temp position, but rather a solid transition into a career of some sort. Since I am not sure what career that is...I am weighing my options before saying yes and nailing an interview. Well about a month ago another agency called me to see if I wanted to be a temp for a previous company I worked for. Since I have been lucky to work with some major companies, different positions arise under the umbrella of science. In particular working in different locations. I know I always say I don't go backwards, meaning I will not work the same dead-end job again...but this time its in New York. ohhhhh the lighttttssss. So I said okay submit my resume for this position that I won't be important in...since I have always said I wanted to work in New York. Turns out I got it (insert smiley face)! As reluctant as I am to start working with another company that just values me as another temp, I always feel my work speaks volumes. I am truly a good worker and I have references to prove it. I feel like I would do so great at my job that people want to grab me up and add me to their teams (still waiting for this to happen). I have been very depressed for the last couple of months because of the feeling of hopelessness. It has allowed me to open up to do things that I say I want to do. Trying to be big and bad only leaves me feeling inadequate. So instead of starting as CEO lets live a little. The thing about this job is that it is only 3 weeks. At this point, I need to work and get out of this house. I feel a fifth stomach forming. 3 weeks is perfect because if any magic that is going to happen towards a career, 3 weeks opens a slither of the door. Also, I will be making more money than I am currently making being poor, so that goes towards something other than chinese food. For 3 weeks I will understand what it is like to commute like my other NJ commuters. 3 weeks is enough to feed my impulsive personality and push me into something I have never done before.