One Step to Healthy

I made some soup towards my Healthy Heart Diet that I am starting because of lent. Today I am DEVOURING chicken soup with french beans, potatoes, corn, onions and garlic. Delicious! I am not sure how much spice I put in there, but it has that little bit of twang. 72 oz of water and two cups of delicious coffee...I think my heart is about ten times better than it was yesterday (gotta pee). Now I am applying for jobs. One of which is less than I've made ever since I graduated college. However, this job is within Forensics and toxicology. This is starting and working my way up I guess. I don't know who put this idea in my head that I would be making $100k a year off the back. I mean my personality is pretty awesome, but I am convinced that ~ that is not enough. I calculated how much I would bring in weekly (which is what I am making now on unemployment) and technically I am doing it now. I can't afford those things that I implusively buy, but I'll be able to eat. So here is the question I've created. At what cost does it take to do the things you need to do and want to do? Trying to figure out what brings me happiness is nearly impossible because I've filled my life with this "thought". As if imagining myself in the corner window office creating something amazing and going to amazing lunches with important people, isn't working. I know there is a ladder to climb, but what if I don't know which ladder I want to start. Oh well, at least I know my heart is a little healthier which means I am a little happier.